About Me...AnnieC

I am a liberal, original thinker. I am goal oriented. Blogging, for me is intended to be a way to document my trials, triumphs, and other special facets of my journey so that I will have a record of what I've learned. However, this blog does not focus on all facets of me, but rather the more dark aspects.

I am 4'11" and look up to everyone, literally and figuratively.

I am a happy person who loves her complex, interesting, simple little life.

I am a seeker of knowledge, wisdom, and light. People interest and fascinate me, but I don't always know the right ways to interact or communicate as I am an introvert. I take my life seriously so most people see the serious side, but when I get stir crazy I am giddy and silly. I have a dry sense of humor that takes most people years to understand.

I am super sensitive, emotional, often kind and trying so hard to do my bit to make the world a better place.

I love to read, make cards, design collage art, write, and research. I am an excellent public speaker...but alas, still looking for the talent that will help me "make my mark" in this world.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I Will Survive...

I feel despicable for staying in a marriage to a man I DO NOT LOVE!!! As a couple for 20 years we've had our ebbs and flows and have always managed to find our way back...this year has been different. I got a stent a year ago in my right coronary artery. The stent was placed 11 months after having my Darling Son. Since the stent I have had to live with hatefulness on a daily basis. I am so dissatisfied with life in general staying with this man who is NOT a support and just constantly weighs me down that I am for the first time ever taking anti-depressants.

I can't stand my Spouse, and sometimes wish he were out of the picture so I could be in the midst of a loving family and support system -- all of whom are in Montana.

I am sick of the put downs, the condescending attitude, and the laziness....I am sick of living with a man who has NOTHING to offer me. I am working on a plan to get out without destroying my Son's future (meaning I am saving money to enable me to rent a nice home and trying to pay some bills down so I don't leave the Spouse in a bind that would be detrimental to my Son). The plan is a long term plan and will take several years to implement. I hope I can survive....
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